by Darrell in Georgia
I have lost two jobs in nine years. Most of the time, I do not have much to offer to my family -- just my existence. I have been married to a wonderful woman for 28 years.
I have a lot of inward frustrations and anger towards many people. I have always kept any negative or violent reactions at bay. Had I been a different person, my life may have been different. I do have insurance, but no money to cover the $200 deductible.
I have been out of work since August 2005. I was turned down for disability. I am too tired to fight it, too tired to work, and too tired to live.
Doctors and their staffers tend to annoy me at their apparent lack of concern about the seriousness of my illnesses. They don't seem to care if I have been suffering for years. They play games, and if you don't jump thru their hoops, which I don't feel like doing, they treat you like crap. They INTENTIONALLY allow me to go without medications, causing me to suffer severe pain over weeks at a time.
I also have peripheral neuropathy fibromyalgia neck trauma.
Fortunately, I have a stable fuse and resistance mechanism built in that will not allow me to blow my fuse. What has helped me the most: My God, my wonderful wife of 28 years, my children and grandchildren. They are why I am still alive today. If not for them, I do not know what might have happened.