by Lisa in North Carolina
I remember very well the reason I started falling apart. I was in nursing school, working two part-time jobs, and my mother was very sick. Within a matter of 24 hours, I lost my mom, and I got kicked out of nursing school because of low grades. After these losses, I became very depressed, suicidal, and homicidal.
The Department of Social Services took my children away from my husband and me. I had to leave my home and go live in a shelter. I lost both of my jobs. Because of all of this loss, I have been in psychiatric hospitals more than once. On one occasion, I was taken by the police to the hospital. Now I go to my community mental health center where I see my nurse and my psychiatrist.
I am on medication that I take on a regular basis. My family treats me differently since I have been diagnosed with severe depression and borderline personality disorder. My family doesn't come around me anymore. I resent this at times.
Today, I have my children in my home with my husband. Still I'm working through things. I probably will have to work on these things for the rest of my life because of my self-mutilating tendencies, but I thank God he has gotten me through this so far.